Long Time No See

"I guess so." he said. "Lacy and I aren't upset or angry at each other for now." he shrugged.

"Does that mean I dont have to hear you complain about blue balls?" he chuckled.

He snorted. "I won't complain but that doesn't mean that anything is happening."

"Dude," he groaned. "This is getting a little ridiculous."

He shrugged. "I can't do much.'

"If you two are good then what's wrong?"

He shrugged again. "Don't know. She usually tries to push me away or tenses up sometimes.' he said. "I mean, yeah I always make sure she's okay with it and everything, but we have sex and then it's like whatever after that.'

"Whatever?"

"We just say one or two things and go to sleep."

"And you wanna stay awake and..?" he tried to understand.

"I don't know.' he snorted. "Like before, we'd just get laid and then we'd like cuddle and shit. You know, talk for a while and be all cute and shit, maybe go at it a few more times. Now it's like nope."

"So you just wanna talk to her."

"I just want it to be less weird between us, I guess." he said. "We're good but we've been better before and I want it like that again." he told him. "I don't know, maybe I'm just being the weird one or something."

"I don't think you're being weird at all." he shrugged. "You think she's there physically but not mentally, right?"

He nodded. "Yeah. I just feel like I don't know what to do anymore to help her or whatever. I try hard to keep her happy too."

"Y'know, eventually you're gonna have to keep yourself happy, too."

"That'll take a while. Until then I'm gonna have to keep myself busy and keep making it seem like I'm happy."

"That's not gonna do anything to help." he said. "I may not have been with Ellie as long as you've been with Lacy but last I checked, happiness was a two way street. If she's happy and you're not, then what good does it serve?" he asked. "There was a time before all of this BS happened that you were both happy, and it worked. No one had to pretend anything."

"Yeah well." he shrugged. "Things changed."

"It's been what, a year now since all of this started?" he shook his head. "Something has gotta give."

"A year." he nodded. 'I don't know. Hopefully something changes this year, if not then what else can I do?" he shrugged.

"..leave?"

"I considered it big time back in November or December, but I don't know. It's a lot to think about."

"Why didn't you?" he asked. "It's not like it wouldn't be justified."

He shrugged. "I don't know." he said. "I know she's been trying and I understand and am being patient." he told him. "So maybe that's why I didn't do anything about it. Plus, it's not just me and her that I have to think about, it's the kids too."